the best christmas in years!

This christmas was the best one i had in years.. It begain with waking up to very few presnts unter the tree.. actaully none ( that were wrapped).. its so easy durring christmas time to get caught up in the I want, I need i have to have mind set.. i had that a little bit this year.. but it was honestly the frist year I did not get anything on my list and was not dissappointed! maybe that is because my list consisted of a 2008 honda element which i knew would not fit under our tree let along down the chimmney! But there were other reasons why this christmas was the best! and it had nothing to do with materal things. it was the best because I got to spend this holiday with three of my most favorite people in the world, who were all given a second chance at life this past year! My father survied a major surgery that lasted 8 hours long, and when it was done the doctors told us they removed infection the size of a football, and if he did not have it done he would have passed away in two months! Lynnie became Cancer free this year, and surived over 10 opperations in the last 2 years, and i am sure should would want to me note that he new boobs and coming along quite nicely!!!! and my grandma guse is still with us.. and actaully got a new doctor.. A BETTER ONE!!! my dads dr!!! and she will be having surgery in the near feature! I thank God for letting us all be together this year! and for his healing hand.. that he touched each one of them and made them better.. and gave them another christmas to celebrate him!

I am also thankful for my "tool" the one that if you car goes into a lake/river/pond you can slice the seat bealt and hammer the window and be free!! I am excited about that! :)

what a day

It all started saturday night when i took a trip to our local target to get some art supplies.. as we were talking out the door a young girl comes running out yelling to my friend Karen.."mrs davie, mrs davie" you husband asked us to email you when we get some wii's in and we have 97 of them coming out tomorrow morning! we are handing out tickets around 7:30.. as i heard this i was thinking of my aunt and uncle sitting in the cold for hours already at kmart to get 2 of 6 wii's they were stocking the shelves with! I thought to myself.. I really want a wii.. it would be cool to have a wii..
at home Karen and i started crafting.. and every once in a while I would look up at her and say 97 wiis.. that is alot of wiis.. that night i did not sleep well! thinking that i could be one of 97!

In the morning a fried came over to watch some game on tv.. when he got there he woke me up and said.. "im here".. I said.. "target has 97 wiis".. and went back to sleep.. or tried to at least.. after tossing and turning for what seemed like a long time i woke up and got dressed, when my friend asked me what i was doing I said.. "will you take me to target ( remind you we were having a big snow/ice storm) he agreed and at half time made the adventure to target.. There I stood in line waiting for a numbered ticket. When i got mine I was number 24! I got a WII.. i could not believe it.. it was such a great morning.. I made friends in the line.. who were all jealous that i was buying the Wii for myself.. and was going home to hook it up! and they were all getting it for their kids for christmas..

When my friend came back, there were still tickets and he also got a wii! :) it was so exciting.. and very tiring! here are some pictures from the day!

It's been ONE YEAR!!!

So this is it.. ONE YEAR since my last haircut! I did it!! this is big for me.. because i get to a point and cut it!!! I think while i am home for christmas I will get a trim.. and maybe a little style.. and then.. ANOTHER YEAR OF NO CUTTING!!!!! YAY!!!!

and then there was one!

This past weekend my brother got married! it was so much fun.. I had a blast with my two favorite cousins in the world.. we danced every dance.. and sang every song.. I caught the bouquet ( which kinda made the bride and all the brides maids unhappy) but it was fun we ate good food and laughed, and even cried a bit :) all in all it was a fun night.. my parents said one down one to go! :)

when it rains it pours..

its been pouring for days.. i cant seem to get it to stop.. :(
I pray that God helps me to see the sun though all the rain...

overlooked

I am sitting in my room... realizing so much about my week to come.. This is a huge week for my family.. and I am so emotional about this week. at the start of the week i have TONS to do to get ready for the end of the week and what is to come.. I am sad about what i realized.. I am stressed right now thinking of all i have to do, from getting stockings and my dressed fixed to a gift and my nails done.. these things are not things i am really concerned about doing.. as you can see i put them off until now.. this weekend my brother is getting married.. and i feel so bad.. I have been dealing with a while bunch of personal issues, and have totally overlooked what is supposed to be the happiest day of my brothers life.. its not only my personal issues that are preventing me or others to not take joy in this day for my brother but Monday after my brother ties the not my father is having a serious surgery, it is a 4 too 6 hour surgery involving the removal of two ribs and a scraping of the lungs.. a good friend of my father had the same surgery and did not make it out.. so i know my fathers mind is consumed by these thoughts, and my mothers as well, for what would she do with out my father.. and how much she is going to have to take care of him after the surgery.. our minds have been so consumed by thoughts and things we need to do to get prepared for the coming home from the surgery and road to recovery and the what if's for me the personal issues.. that we have put the wedding on the back burner.. I know that i will be a great big ball of emotion.. and if you know my mom she will too.. Please if anyone reads this ever pray for my family.. that we can enjoy the day with my borther.. and pray for my father and that he does well through the process.. pray for my mom to be stong though it all, and for me.. that i can look past my own issues and enjoy the wedding and be there for my mom and dad for the rest of the week, also pray for my brother that he can enjoy his honeymoon, and trust that God has everything under control back here..

why give up now?

so its super late.. I have been sleeping well what so ever.. but tonight that is not the reason why i am just getting to bed now.. lately I have been addicted to doing puzzles.. yes thats right i said puzzles! I know i know I am only 27 years old.. what am i doing.. doing puzzles. but it has really has become a great source of therapy for me.. Today/tonight my friend karen bought out a new puzzle.. a much harder puzzle then we have been doing in the past.. its a thousand pieces and is only black and white.. its so hard.. around 1:00am after working on the puzzle for hours already karen said to me i am going to work until 2:00am I have put so much time into this already how can i give up now..

I stopped.. and thought why? why give up now.. I was not talking about a puzzle i was thinking more on a personal level.. but.. we work 7 hours on a puzzle a put so much time and effort into it.. we did not just want to say screw it and give up, take apart all the pieces apart and put them away. We decided to keep going.. Not long ago i was told by someone that they were ready to just give up on something they have been working at for 7 years 7 YEARS... to just give up walk away.. and leave just drop it just like that.. we did not stop at a puzzle because we put so much time in it.. WHY do people just give up when so much time is invested... i just don't get it.. it hurts my heart..

my heart...

one day i was playing with one of my little friends that i spend so much time with, and we were building with blocks.. all kinds of blocks. big ones, small ones, red ones, and green too, He worked so hard getting his castle just right.. when i block fell down he would put it back so carefully trying his hardest to keep it just the way he wanted it!

once coming close to the ending putting on the finishing touches, he stood up tall and said "IM DONE... a castle" with that.. his brother runs through the room and pushes over all the blocks to the ground broken in many pieces, destroyed.. The little guy sits and looks at the mess, and starts balling.. and says how do i ever make it like that again? it took so long.. now its just everywhere.. where do i begain to pick up the pieces and put it back together again.

just like that.. its gone.. hours, days and years to build it up... seconds to destroy it.. many would say but you can rebuild it bigger and stronger and better.. but others will just put the blocks away and not try anymore.. I am not sure which one i am.. as of right now I am trying to figure out what piece to pick up first and put back together? because I am not sure where to start.

its getting longer..

Just an update of my hair process! its has gotten long enough to pull pack in a real pony tail, and braid it! :) yay!! check it out!

why?

why do i blog... its cool when you have a meaning in life to blog... or even cool when people actually read your blogs... however i don't think i have much of either in my life at this time.. there is this guy David jay.. he has an AWESOME blog.. its like a online journal with different little things from his everyday life.. I can do that but it would just be the same thing every so many days.. I went to the mall today.. at the yearbook office again, had the boys again tonight.. it would just be the same things over and over and over again and I am not a fan of that, and would not want to bore you. Andres blog is cool because he can show his work to people.(check his out avcphoto@blogspot.com) I just have my silly thoughts.. that are only read by me.. and once and a blue moon some others... maybe soon ill have more exciting things to write..

my Computer..

I love my computer.. almost too much, i spend a lot of time on it.. and learn a lot from it.. when i don't know what something is i Google it, when i want to buy something i go online, when i need directions i use my computer to help me do so, when i have nothing to do i chat with friends on my computer.. there are endless possibilities on a computer! but just recently i came to my bed room and, found what might have been the worst day of my life.. a lot of my keys where pulled off my keyboard.. my F1 F2 F3 my `and ~ key is missing my 1 and ! key is pulled off and my Function key GONE!!!!!!! my escape key is hanging on by the thread! so i am sad my little 12 inch G 4 is hurting! :( I need to her in... poor thing. So if i don't sound too excited its not that I'm not.. its just that my (!) key is broken.

not just ANOTHER job

I have recently "retired" from my job, and promised myself that i would have another job by the fall! well here i am weeks from fall and still have no clue what i want to be doing with my life! My resume says I can do a lot of things, I can answer phones, and file, i can keep track of a budget, and organize, keep people busy, and teach people a skill, I know photo skills and even how to work a PC and a MAC. but none of that defines who i am! Heck a monkey can answer a phone! What defines me and keeps me going is service, service to others, I love to help those who need help, i love loving the unloved these are things i can do, and i feel i do them well, so in looking for a JOB these are the things i look for. The best job in the world for me would be loving orphans, or helping a disabled person with everyday choirs, or simply just helping! I feel that LOVE can change the world, and all you need is love ;) But its so true.. a little love goes such a long way. I wish that my job could be kiki director of love and service.. you are having a bad day... go see kiki, you have tennis after work and you forgot your tennis shoes at your house.. call kiki.. shell go get them. no paper work, no boss, just me and the love God gave me working together to make the world a brighter place. Wouldn't that be nice

FUN FUN FUN!

The summer is sadly coming to an end.. I have been sad to see if go so fast.. So this past weekend i spent it with friends and family and my favorite place in the world KNOBLES family fun and amusement! it was a great time as always complete with a roller coasters, baked potato, and cotton candy

teeth, health care, and craigslist!

So the past few days i have been out of service.. because of pain... BAD BAD pain in my mouth.. i have not been able to do much.. but cry and wine, and take pain killers, and place ice packs on my face!

Because of my "early retirement".. I am no longer covered with any type of health insurance.. and its a very scary thing to think about when living in this country! I recently have some dental work done for on my tooth.. (when covered by insurance) It was a root canal.. The whole process took 4 actual appointments, ( which i never went to the 4th one) but in the end it coast over a thousand dollars for ONE root canal. and i did not even get the crown on it.. because that was when i was dropped from my insurance but when i called the dentist office.. they told me with out insurance it would coast me another thousand dollars! where am i going to get that!? i just retired! oh my...

So back to my toothache.. I somehow cracked two teeth, and have hardly any money and a low income from babysitting.. ( but a great tan!) so out of being very desperate I was up to trying anything to take care of my tooth, I even thought about drilling it out myself.. but while browsing on my favorite website (craigslist) I came across the wanted section.. and saw some of the things people wanted! it was crazy one guy wanted a tool shed, another a cell phone, and a fish tank, another guy wanted a parrot, and some one else wanted cash! so i thought i wanted a dentist! so i thought why not! and i posted a wanted add it went like this!


I need a dentist! I have had a toothache for days now, I recently graduated college and do not have heath insurance, and can not afford to pay for it out of pocket. Does anyone know of a dentist in the Rockland area who works on the "sliding scale" or any dentist that wants to just simply help! this is a low cry for help but not sure what else to do, and i would love to get a full nights sleep with out waking up to rinse with salt water or take pain medication!

hope someone can help! thanks!

not an hour later i get an email from a girl telling me about a dentist in highland falls. she tells me he is an older man who left his practice and just does dentistry on the side to help people out. so i give him a call. HE the dentist answers the phone, and tells me, I am a sucker for people who don't have much come in at 3:30. telling the story to the people i live with, they decide i cant go alone just in case this dude is some freak, once getting there this little old man with white hair comes out and says to Karen and the kids you stay here she will be back.. maybe.. so i go into the little room with very dated equipment share my story with the older man who wanted to know so much about me and my life. and who also told me my last name in German meant to eat! the guy hooked me up, he charged me 30 bucks and got me meds that would take care of the pain and infection in my teeth! I went back to see him again today and he told me he can help me out quite a bit. and he can do all the work, and i can pay him little by little! he is also going to do a root canal for 80 dollars which is just the COST of the supplies! WHAT? my other Doctor charged me and my insurance thousands of dollars for the SAME thing! I am so excited and thankful that i found this guy.. and wish there were doctors out there like him!

for i believe that most doctors are just out to make money there are FOR profit people and they know that Americans NEED to get fixed so they can TONS of money for there procedures and get it.. because they know they can.. why not this is the richest country in the world! a few years back i went to Ecuador and actually went to the eye doctors while i was there, and i got a full eye exam and new frames and lenses! for get this 70 dollars! that is it.. and they were the expensive glasses! what is WRONG WITH OUR COUNTRY! my last pair of glasses in the US would have coast me 400Dollars if i did not have insurance! What about people who have nothing are we just supposed to let them die, just wither away!? what is wrong with our country!? why cant our country follow in the other countries footsteps.. because doctors need to be so rich? because we have the BEST doctors? that's BS! our system is full of crap! what about universal health care?? where the health care is mandated by legislation and taxation it provides everyone with health insurance at a reasonable price.. Why does our country have to want to be bigger and better? why are they so stupid.; People are hurting.. people are dieing.. people can not afford the proper treatment! i could not imagine hurting (like i have with my tooth) all the time because i cant afford it..

our country needs to get its act together.. and i pray for the 47 million + people who are out there with out any insurance at all i am one of them now i have to stick with my peeps!

I am so thankful for my new dentist, and for craigslist, and the girl that took the time to help me out!

what a guy!

did you ever meet those people who are sick and give up there whole life? I once remember meeting a woman, who had a rash on her face dude to some illness and she went on disability because the rash made her itch! i remember thinking. this woman is letting her illness rule her life!

well here is another story! about 10 years ago a man i knew got diagnosed with an illness called lupus, and although it has limited him in the things he can do, he still has an incredible outlook on life then anyone i have ever met! This dude once an avid skier, snowboarder, golfer, baseball player,bowler and trampoline jumper has had all of that taken away from him little by little. When first diagnosed he still did the things he loved, quitting just baseball, because to pick up the bat and swing was hard for him, but as time went on, he slowly but surely gave up all the sports he once loved. skiing and snowboarding because of the cold weather and his lungs, and bowling because the guys on the team smoked and he could not take it, trampoline jumping because it got too hard for him to catch his breath, and his joints hurt him so much while doing it! Today once and a while he will go golfing but not with out his oxygen machine!

But the Man still gets up day in and day out to go to work, to bring home the bacon! He keeps going and finds excitement in other things these days such as working on his classic car, his dog, and a new found appreciation for his friends and family! Spending his every extra min with them and enjoying the company of them. He is sure not to miss little league games, or school plays and concerts he does not miss graduations,or birthday parties, he goes to parades, and fairs with the kids and family members and has dinner with friends once a week, along with a yearly vacation with the same friends! despite the fact that it tires him out and wears him down! this man would do anything for you, Give you the last bit of money in his wallet just so you are "ok" or help you reface a kitchen or fix up your house, he will give you the shirt off his back if you needed it!

the things that were once important to this man have become lasting memories but the things that are real in life such as friends and family is what keeps him going though all these hard times! He is a trooper.. laughing alot and making jokes in the mist of his suffering and hurting! even though you can tell he limited by his illness it does not stop the man from missing a moment! and I am proud to call this man my father! I love him with all my heart and pray that he is healed! he is a special man to me.. and i hope that my outlook on life is just half as good as his! :)

I’m having a baby… Or am I?

Over the years I have been drawn to kids. Maybe its because I have such a heart for kids. Maybe its because I am a kid at heart? I whatever the reason maybe, I have had plenty of jobs dealing with kids. Working at as a girl ski/snowboard instructor I always got the kids classes, I baby sat from the time I could stay home alone, I worked for moms groups playing with kids. I thought science to kids, and then worked at a camp with kids, I worked with babies, and middle-aged kids, I worked with Jewish kids, and even handicapped kids. I love kids. But lately I have been thinking about my own kids. And the thought of actually ever wanting any,

When I was younger I wanted kids. Even up to my early 20’s I wanted kids. Heck last week I wanted kids. But then I started to really think about it. I wanted 11 kids. (Maybe not all my own!) But after I hit 25 and did not start this process I cut it down to 7, now being 27, I thought maybe I just want 2, or better yet, just give ONE all my attention. For who knows how old ill be when I finally do have kids. And maybe ill “breakdown” and not work anymore and wont be able to enjoy my kids. My father was 42 when we was diagnosed with lupus, and my aunt was in her mid 30’s when she got breast cancer (she having two kids (ages1 and 3) It really sets you back, my father cant do half of what he used to because of this. Now I am not saying I am going to get a disease but you just don’t know!


My other factors in not wanting a child are. They coast a lot of money. That I don’t have. . I would want to be a stay at home mom. But sometimes I am not even sure where my next meal is going to come from so how could I take care of a baby, and I think the front wheel of my car is lose and I don’t think that it is safe for a baby! ☺ And lastly I am kind of babied out. Our family has had a baby boom of its own and went from having my cousin ray who is 24 being the youngest to having 10 babies/kids running around and one on the way, also I’m living with 3 little boys, and watching other kid on and offs. Or at least taking part in their lives makes me say “hey. Why have my own, I can just take care of these ones and spoil them and then give em' back!

I don’t know what the feature will bring. and i dont think there is anything wrong with having a baby! infact if you are call me, ill spoil your kids and then drop them back off to you! But for now these are my thoughts!

Here are some kids I spend parts of my life with! ☺

my yummy meal! :)

Today I so wanted to eat something good, For lunch I had the boys that meant fast food, chicken nuggets and personal sized pizza, although I did try a little part of each of there meal it was not satisfying to me what so ever. When I got home I checked out the fridge to see what I can have on a more healthy side and nothing, cheese sticks, and milk, no thank you!

It was almost dinner time, I am not sure what to have still Andres called and said he had left over Wendy’s Chili and rice, no thank you, so on the way to his house I stopped at the store and bought a bunch of different foods to help me make a meal that hit the spot!






TACO SALAD!!! Yay!!!! yummy taco salad!

NYC

They say New York City is the place to be... And it is so true. There are many things at your fingertips in NYC. Heck the city to me is all the countries coming together in one place. Sometimes while in the city I imagine it to be a lot like heaven, with better langue, and ALOT cleaner! It pretty amazing to me the amount of people in the city, PEOPLE just doing their own thing, to make it along in life, As I was in the subway I saw a older man begging for money, at that point I thanked God that even though I don’t have a job right now He has provided me with a place to live and food to eat.




When on the train, there were three young girls I would say early to mid 20's and each one with its own baby/child I heard one little boy call one of the girls mom, so I assumed they were all young single parents, for I did not see any rings or hear talks of any dads or husbands. I over head the one girl tell the other how she does not go out to have fun any more, because her baby takes up so much time and money. At this point a feeling of hurt came over my heart, and burden for those who are less fortunate than me, I know in any case what so ever weather I am 27 or 37 married or single kids or no kids, what ever may come my way, I have a mother and father who would do anything for me, and help me out with whatever I need. And above that I have a GOD who’s is not going to bring me this far just to drop me. That is when I started to really think about my feature, and what is to come next, and I want to help those who have nothing I want to reach out and love them, and go above and beyond for them. I want to help single parents that have nothing; I want to help teen parents and even the homeless. I want to give them that my parents would give me and what my God gives me! If not in material things, in unconditional love. 






Getting off the subway in that short 45 min trip, my heart was changed... maybe i need to go to the city more often! For some spending too much time in the hardens there heart.. For me... it opens mine to a world of possibilities, and fills my heart with compassion for so many!

Rainy days

This morning I woke up to the sound of raindrops on my window. It was grey and gloomy. In the summer, every nice day is a day I want to be out and about walking, swimming, playing, at parks riding rides, or just simply enjoying the weather... But today the rain and bad weather reminded me of the things I love doing on rainy days, and have not done in some time. So I put on my favorite pair of sweats and a hoodie, I thought of all the possibilities of things I could do, but then I remembered its Monday, I have the kids. :( On my rainy days, I would like to curl up on the couch with a good book and a really good movie, and if I only read two pages of the book, or see 15 mins of the movie and fall asleep its ok! But watching 3 boys ages 3, 5, 7, you cant do that. There is no way. SO. Instead we enjoyed the indoors by playing computer games, making videos with my camera, and taking some funny pictures...




However when their dad got home I did have some time to myself before have to go to my "other job" (nothing bad! just helping to work on the college yearbook) but I got to read a bit of my current book (Tuesdays with Morrie) and watch some HGTV... nothing like I had dreamed when I woke up this morning, but it was something, although I love my tan, I cant wait for the fall for more sweatpants and movie days! :)

The beach

I love a day at the beach, this weekend I spent one whole day at the beach with my favorite person in the world! it was a great day full of Boardwalk french fries, big waves, naps, talking, laughing, swimming, sun and bonding... If the summer allows i would love to get back but for now, I have a good tan and some great memories!

The bet!

I have an issue with my hair, I get to a certain point in my hair growing process and I freak, and cut it all off, So December 2006, I made a bet with myself that I would not cut my hair for a year. With 8 months down and 4 to go, I am going strong. Not sure what I think of the whole thing but I am going to keep up my end of the bet. (Although they are both my ends)

Here is a little peek to my hair stages. This picture was taken LAST summer, when one day I got bored and just got bored, and called my best friend Mandy and asked her if she wanted to join me in getting a hair cut... this was the end result a pixie haircut!


Next was taken in November, a little bit of a different color, and getting a bit longer...


Then comes December the month of the bet... this is when trims, and all where now banned, and the growing process begins! Also pictured my cats. Jezzi and Larry, that’s how they like to ride in the car,


In January the Shag look begins!


Spring time arrives!!! And I have not cut my hair in months, or taken a picture of the progress... But it’s May and my hair has grown a bit...




And here we are now... July. And it’s not much longer. But it’s getting there.




And here is the ponytail... not long what so ever. But a pony tail none the less...




So just a few more months to go, I have had many urges to go to the "CHOP SHOP" with it. I am hoping that it grows faster because in November of this year my brother is getting married, and although I am not a huge part of the big day I would like for my hair to look decent for the day! 

But my biggest thought and wonder has been. Am I really a person that can pull off long hair? This is quite new to me! 

Ill keep you ALL posted with my progress! :)

DUDES!

Hi dudes!!! Just thought i would try out this new place to blog! I am going to try to blog here once a day, with picutes and everything! :) it would be nice to keep up with this!! so here i go! i am just gonna blog a few tonight to get caught up!

ENJOY! :)